Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Thursday, January 20, 2011


Our eleven-and-a-half year old kitty, Spirit, is dying. He almost died
8 years ago, but we spent lots of money on the ER Vet, Vet and
homeopathic Vet. He has lost and gained weight when he gets either
sick or stressed, but this time he doesn't seem to be recovering. When
I met Hubby, Spirit was four months old. They fell in love with each
other and I lost my cat. Twelve years ago, I lost my dear sweet, Max.
When he got sick and required IV fluids, force feeding 4-6 times/day,
I resolved that I was not going to go through that again. I kept him
alive for me because I wasn't ready to let him go. I spent the next 18
months in twice weekly psychotherapy. It changed my life. I wouldn't
be the person I am today if I had not been through the caretaking,
trauma, grief and eventual healing. I am sad about what is going to
happen, Hubby is too. This really sucks!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


What is it about this time of year? I am a Texas gal and I love my
sunshine and recently we have had plenty. I really don't think it is
seasonal affective disorder. Christmas is getting easier, I'm working
more so we are not completely broke, the kids are as healthy as they
can be mid-winter. Number One Daughter has fluid in her ears or
negative pressure and she has been so well behaved. I guess that she
is not being overstimulated by the sounds of our world. Hubby is
beyond stressed at work. Our little friend is stiil in the hospital
waiting for seizures so he can have another brain surgery. There have
been so many deaths and illnesses recently. This time of year is one
more opportunity to focus on the gift of suffering and being born to
eternal life.